Sunday, September 6, 2009

The Conspiracy: (en)S(l)aved by Slaves

I'm waiting... today will end...
just a few hours to tick by...
im sick..im feeling sick
desperate to close...eyes..heavy...drum in my ears...cant take it...
night and dark just let it be...
i'll find my way..just let me be
dont want to open them few hours hence... then each minute.. then each second..passing past my endurance... , please ..im saying please... dont u listen? im desperate.
not sorry..im not regrettin't ...i'll vomit now. thrashing .. cant take't..cursed despo.. dank dark despo
ugly ropes cut'in into my veins... life blood's clotting, draining...stinking...sinking
is it being killed...ohhh you faction...this is a conspiracy

18 comments:

Fantasies of a Lifetime said...

That is quite sad and dark , well written , reminded me of all those days when i sat by the clock , watching it tick slowly , waiting for it to go faster , but as time goes by it becomes quite the opposite . . . . . . . May tomorrow be less confusing . .

Stupidosaur said...

I do relate to the basic core feel behind your post. But I don't feel it in such paralyzing melodramatic manner :P.

Of course you wrote it does not necessarily mean you feel so wretched actually. Could be intellectual exercise in writing ;).

BTW yes, its a conspiracy. The mice have set you up in the machine to find the question of Life, Universe and Everything ;)

And our Right Said Fred thing isn't over yet. I am genuinely trying to make a point there. Not simply playing with words. Try to see if you can see some sense. I am a little concerned that you can't.

Ayushi said...

# Fantasies of a Lifetime,
Hi there, long time!
...I'm not confused, or maybe I am :)

# Stupidosaur,
:) That's my most peaceful state, the conspiracy has to do with my most unpeaceful state.

Well, neither am I..playing with words, i mean. Well you needn't be concerned coz I can see as much sense as you make in your statements(not that its quite a lot anyway ;P ). I'm quite clear with my things, its like Sita says "Lying is good" and Gita says "Everything that succeeds is not always a lie" and Stupido says "We can say well said to both in different situations"
Ayushi says "Well, lying is bad, cant say well said to Sita in any situation". Getting my point?

Like there are 4 inputs. A, A',B,B' (read B ,not)
Its like you chose A and B' and since i say A is always 1 and B' is always 0, so you cant say you can interpret them both as 1.

These are the simplest examples I can make and take. Soch rahi thi program code likh kar samjha doon :P

Pranav Kumar V said...

ah!! I always thought this blog was always meant just for 'The G-d fucKtor'!! :P Just backtracking...

And all this post made me think of was Lost for words - Floyd

...Can you see your days blighted by darkness?
Is it true you beat your fists on the floor?
Stuck in a word of isolation
While the ivy grows over the door...


See you when I see you... :D

Ayushi said...

# Pranav Kumar V,
Hmm...the song which you pointed out was yet unknown to me... but I connect with it... me likes it!

Ayushi said...

Pranav contd.
infact..its rather like a post i wrote a long time back...

man in painting said...

it happens.but for writers it is good.it gives patterns which are strange and recording gives joy..
cheers

»»Mist™ said...

omg... how can someone think so much!! :-0

Ayushi said...

# »»Mist™,
Omg why does everyone comment so! :-s

Ayushi said...

# Man in the Painting,
Hmm yeah... :)

»»Mist™ said...

I'm not 'everyone' !

Ayushi said...

Mist,
Heck no, u represent the majority though!
:)

Stupidosaur said...

Ayushi blogspot se catty?

Ayushi said...

:-o

Stupidosaur said...

Catty - Katti (Hindi) - As in unfriending, not talking, etc. Opp of Batti (which is reversing of Katti.)

Of Katti-Batti fame)

That was just a Stupid inversion of your blog url asking whether you stopped blogging

:P

I am posting 'explanation' thinking ':-O' meant you didn't get it. If you did get it then it means I didn't get the ':-O' and the emot ion behind the emot icon.

Ayushi said...

*Rolls Eyes* :P

bigbracket said...

This post is quite older for me. Sorry, I'm commenting too late its December.
btw nicely written.
Regards+take care

Stupidosaur said...

You know, you phrase "*Rolls Eyes* :P" reminds me of Crime Master Gogo